Heartfelt Mind-Meld: An Ending…Dream!

Hebrews 11:6, “And without faith, it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe He exists and that He rewards those who seek Him.” (empahsis mine)

Dream.  To be honest, I just don’t dream anymore.  In the last 7 years, I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve dreamt at night.  And half of those are from the first few months after my ex-wife left.  It’s a depressing thought, but it’s my reality, and I refuse to allow my reality to be depressing, even if I find tears in my eyes now and again.

It’s been a busy couple of years since I last wrote on this blog.  As a blog post some months ago noted, we’ve moved back to our original site and purpose.  The time writing under Messy Truth was good, but God clearly closed a door there (a door He used to bless my life, as well; but that’s a completely different story!).  I’ve changed States and my kids are all on the cusp of puberty, which has me one very alert and active Papa!  Ha ha ha!

In that time, the Lord has been working in my life to listen to Him more and to trust Him implicitly.  However crazy the ask may sound, if it aligns with His word, I’m learning to run toward what He’s asked me to do.  It certainly hasn’t been an easy process, but it has been beautiful to see what He has done in the midst of it.  And to think, this is just a glimpse!!!

All of this brings me to today.  I’ve tried to compose this post, the closure of the Heartfelt Mind-Meld, but I have never gotten my thoughts together enough.  Something was always missing.  And yet, now, I see it.  As we continue to walk this journey, reader, you need to DREAM!  You need to pray for vision to see where God wants you, the wild things He wants to do in and through your life, and pray for them to come!  Let Him give you dreams!

This is VERY difficult for me to do.  My analytical mind says that dreams are futile, who knows what tomorrow holds?  Further, my cynical side is more than happy to lob motors on my dreams.  After all, I was living a dream, and it blew apart at the seams in a day and a night.  Dreaming is dangerous.  It’ll only lead to heartbreak.

Well…to be honest, that may very well be true!  Your heart may break, for there is an abundance of pain in the world.  And dreaming may very well be dangerous!  After all, who knows what crazy thing God will ask of you, how much ridicule you’ll endure, or what snares the devil may set, and God may allow them to snap, to build in you the man/woman He needs to reach the people of this world.  So, yes.  It may be dangerous and heartbreaking.

Even so, a dear friend once illuminated to me that “risk is measured not by the probability of success or failure but in the value of the goal that we achieve.”  And what is that goal?  Further service to and a greater relationship with our Lord and Savior Jesus!  When those hardships come, and they will, press into Him!  When the pain and anguish rise, and they will, press into Him!  He will sustain you, and in the midst, you will gain the opportunity to know and be-known by the One Who made you in a deeper way that supercedes all ideas or conceptions!

Dear brother or sister, you have been through a trial that some never survive and most are never the same, but your life is not over!  I know it feels that way!  There are times the enemy still tries to convince me that it is!  But if you are surrendered to Christ, if you seek only to serve Him with every breath you take, your life is just beginning!

You may not have control over whether you dream at night, but you can still dream.  So, dream.  Dream big!  And see what the Lord might do through your life!

Two more thoughts before we part; first of all, if you know me, you already know that I do not subscribe to the Prosperity Gospel nonsense.  I do not believe that I can just believe on God for something and He’ll pop it out like some sort of Divine Candy Machine!  That is an insult to the character and Persons of the Almighty!  He is SOOOO much more than that!  In fact, some of the most important people in history, including Biblical history, never set out to be something big.  They just sought after God and let Him direct their course; in some cases, that course turned out to be something big.  In other cases, folks were used to influence or lay the foundation for what God would later build into something big!

And while I don’t buy into health-and-wealth preaching, I do believe God can provide us crazy big resources for His purposes.  If I need an airplane to get medical supplies to a remote village for Jesus’ sake, you better believe one will become available, or a guide who knows a hidden way that will still get us there, or something!  But if He doesn’t, I trust Him even so!  And if I find myself with a large raise or a chunk of spare cash, then I look to what He wants to do with that, not my will, but His be done!  I hope you see what I’m saying; in short, I believe God will always provide what is needed when it is needed.  And if He doesn’t provide, I trust it is not yet needed or there is another way.  But it is trust placed in Him, not my creative wits or resourceful prowess or even what I think.

Secondly, I want to thank you for reading and encourage you.  I’m not sure how you got here or if you’ll be back, but I hope that this has blessed you with the reality that you are not alone and that Jesus truly loves you (burly bear-hug type LOVES you!) and will help you if you will only surrender your life into His hands, trust in His death to pay for your sins and His resurrection, and let Him guide you.  I hope that our time in the mind-meld has helped you to see that the struggles you are facing have been faced by others.  I ache that you have to walk through this trial, but as one who is somewhat down the road, I can honestly tell you that you will make it.  I look back and cannot explain how I have made it through sometimes, but God is always faithful, and He has always made a way for me to endure through it.

As we end the mind-meld, the blog will continue to exist, with various Bible studies or analytical observations of the world.  Perhaps there will be a time when I come back around and do another mind-meld, but for now, I don’t know what more I can share with you about this path.

I have had disappointments, dreams that I thought were going to come about but never did, and I have seen things I never thought would be possible again become reality.  It has been a series of ups and downs with triumphs aplenty and some failures.  The one constant thing is that God has never stopped working in and through me, even when I thought there was no way He could use me, He would, in ways I still don’t even fully know, having only heard testimonies by one or two folks who referenced “others” who were watching.

Be encouraged, brother!  This life is not the one you wanted, but it is the one that will bring you the closest to Christ, if you will let Him be Lord (ruler) and Savior (rescuer), allowing Him to call the shots, guide, supply, and comfort!

Almost two decades ago, I was given a book.  While it was both humorous and serious, I have reflected on its title as an encouraging reminder that God is not done with me while there is breath in my lungs.  While it sounds ominous, I now seek to encourage you with the same title that, as it is truly beautiful when you get to look back from the other side of whatever fire you may be in right now.  So, I close our time with this:

Oh, The Places You Will Go!

– Vires et Honorem –

1 Corinthians 15:10

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